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i sooo didden wanna see you today.i thought you wouldnt turn up.but you did.i wanted to run away at that moment u came in SO SO badly...but i found myself wanting to see you...i found myself turning back a few times to check how you were doing.you didnt look back.
i respect you for choosing this way.i dont blame you...i just dont understand why. i dont care what other people said...i thought you didnt care too? im not sure! see so many things werent sorted out before you left.i dont care anynmore if people know or dont know what we had...its their problem right...did it affect you?wad people said? im not sure...will i ever know? only you can answer that...
i want you back so badly.i miss you so much do you know that? i force myself to hold back the tears everytime i think of you.i force myself to do things to get my mind off you.its hard you know?i dont even get to talk to you anymore. its only been a week but its been a SUPER LONG week...every minute of the day seems to pull me further apart from you...but forget it.
your bent on not wanting anything.im okaay with it. im still here for you as your friend.i hope you will be there for me too k? i love you. even if its not the same way you do.
was listening to this song this morning.tears were coming out cuz this song is like super fitting...is this good bye? seems like it? i dont wana a goodbye...i want a hello...i want a good night...do you still want your good night?
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A Lonely September
I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own, oh
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight (one more chance tonight)
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not gettin' me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did
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